Holding onto the Dream (and the reality)

Today I want to explore the duality of holding onto a desire, a dream – and allowing the Universe to deliver it easily, despite the fact that maybe you live in a different dream (for now).
 

When we lean into trust acceptance of our present moment, and fully appreciating where we are, here and now- the energy of the universe lines up to deliver our true desires. To such an extent, we ask ourselves, “is this what I truly want?”
 


I find myself wishing my current situation were different. If only this, then I will be contented. If that, then I can relax and create. How about instead, focusing on our core desired feeling, rather than the material thing we believe to help us get there? Perhaps our own feelings of connectedness and wholeness are all we really need in order to be fulfilled. So- what can we do today- to give these gifts- our own core desired feelings- to ourselves? How do we find ways to do things that make us feel this way, even more? If we feel the way we want to feel…we give the Universe permission and support to bring that in even more. (what do I do that makes me feel the way I want to feel?)
 
For me, I want to feel light. I associate a lightness, playfulness, as I dive headlong into growth in my business. After sitting with these feelings, and these ways I wish to feel, I realize I can feel these things now.  By finding things for me to schedule into my life now, to help me feel this way – I am calling in my new life by Living Into It.
 
Silly play. Art. Playdates with my kiddo. Whipped cream and fruit pancakes: breakfast for dinner more. Movie night with family. Date nights with my sweetie. More travel. A cheeriness that is not heavy...this can only come from setting clear non-negotiables in my business and self care, and allowing the Universe to rise and meet me. Daring mySelf and my Team to Live Greatly!

The most personal, very poignant tale of this phenomena- was leaning in, really visualizing a natural home birth, despite a multiple situation, high-risk pregnancy. We had already experienced a ghost twin, and through the weeks that followed our experience with her, found out through ultrasound that I had placenta previa. This term names the condition where the placenta lies over the opening of the uterus. It is a term that necessitates a hospital birth via C-section.
 
Not. My. Dream.
 
So while my doc watched skeptically, I spent seven months visualizing a home birth. I saw it, felt it, dreamt about it, even played out how we would give birth in front of a raging fire in our basement living room. The spicy woodsmoke, the coolness of ice water sliding down my throat, how yummy my smoothie cubes would taste. My doc never discouraged me, but took a “well, it won’t hurt” for you to visualize… point of view. And just two weeks before our prescribed “birthing date,” he ok’d our home birth. With the caveat that if we went a week over, he would induce… I was that high risk.
 
I had by this point, resolved the previa status. My heart felt as if it would burst~! Here, I had seen both the midwife and MD the whole term, holding trust and vision for our dream.  He gave us the green light.
 
I truly believe now, that it is absolutely possible to live in one reality AND hold a dream for a different ending. Both being present to what our current experience is, and leaning into our dream –hard. My visualizations were blessings, for now I see this as a great metaphor for all of life.
 
Being Present. Feeling, seeing, sensing, dreaming, being content. Perhaps
anticipating a shift, but being content - despite that.
 
So we registered with the hospital, shortly before the “birth date” – just in case. And affirmations abounded that birthing at home would support our dreams and family best. The little nurse who walked us through the labor and delivery ward said, “operation, c-section, or surgery” more than 8 times in less than 10 minutes! That was a deal breaker for us.
 
This is a decision that I would never prescribe for someone else, but home birth turned out to really be right for us.
 
And all this after we enjoyed the heck out of our pregnancy. We were sexy, silly close, supportive – my guy was an incredible gate keeper and guardian for this journey. And hot too.
But I digress.
 
If I did it, YOU can do it too!
Anything you BELIEVE in and put your mind to… believe it, keep the faith, and do the things. It Will Happen.
 
You are powerful beyond your wildest Imagination. Be You. The best You that you can be. You got this. And if you need a reminder, do reach out. I’m just…right here. Drop me a note. I’ll ping you back. I promise.
 
To Joy! To dancing with the Universe!
-L

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